Dreams..

Hmm..so like I said, a fresh new start is what I need.. right.. Who said it was that easy >.<
I'm kinda beginning to not think about him, but that's only one hour out of 24/7. XD
The dreams help a lot too! Happy hugged couple, me and him, on vacations, in the bathroom, etc. Omg, somebody stop me from sleeping! :P

Anyways, I am about to get my first real job. well not 'real' because it's hard or anything, but giving out fliers sure isn't a REAL job. pay sucks and so does the endless walking and waiting.
My first exam period is about to end and it kinda sucked, I hope I'll do better in the second.

I've started playing go again, and I am surprised I haven't fallen behind. I'm at around 10 kyu in the new KGS, so that'd make me around 17 kyu in Japan, real-life?..
I must hurry and become dan :D

My manga is stuck in the 6th page. I don't have the mood to do it and I 'd prefer it well done, rather than just done with. :)

Last of all, my mood is a straight line trying to get to the core of earth, but at least it's moving reeeeeeeeeeeeally slowly. So something good is bound to happen sooner or later.

I've seen some interesting blogs, but I still haven't gotten the hang of this. How the hell do you put a blog as a favourite or something?..I hope I'll figure it out soon >.<
Anyways, see ya stranger ;)

Starting over..

Well, I've thought about it and I've decided.. I'm starting over.. A new start is the best thing I could do.. Well, whining about how sucky my life is doesn't do any good. I have good friends, a nice family and I'm in a good university.. It'd be nice to actually draw to make a living, but it's too faraway a dream. I guess I'll sit my ass down and study to finish the Maths School and I'll see on the way what I will do.. I also decided that I tried enough with that friend of mine. I called him and tried to talk with him about me liking him, but it just didn't happen. He was either busy or sleeping or just didn't want to answer or go out with me probably, so I'm done wasting my energy and happiness on that one..
Let's see.. I found a hilarious site. Http://ftw.generation.no
It has wtf pics, which means they are total randomness and there are many funny ones in it, but also many shoking or scary ones >.< So watch it if you aren't easily offended or affected by some things.. homosexuality, blood, etc.Most of those pics are photoshop-experiments :P Dunno some people are crazy XD

Lastly, I saw a deleted comment in my last post O_o.. I was shocked to see a comment in the first place, but a deleted one? :) Lol, I guess whoever wrote that changed his/her mind. Oh well..

Melancholy :\

I think there's a song called Melancholy..anyways..
I am feeling very down lately.. I have a LOT of things on my mind..I don't do well in university, I'm feeling like I won't do anything I really like in my life and as if I wasn't in a bad condition, I fell in love with a friend of mine..His name keeps popping up in my head..It's everywhere.. I mean who names a cookie-store Aggelos(Angel in greek..). I told him through an sms that i've liked him for some time and that since, naturally he didn't, this effectively ruined our friendship..I said that we could be friends if he wanted, but it really was up to both of us. Then I said that if he thought that he should call me that moment, he shouldn't cause I wouldn't have the guts to answer..And that's all.. This happened about two weeks ago.. He didn't reply to the sms. He saw me once on the street and he spoke to me like nothing had happened...
I really can't deal with this..I'm weak around him..I can't think straight, I say stupid things just to make him laugh..(well I do this pretty often anyway ^^;)
..It hurts too much..
I guess that being in love isn't always the good feeling everyone thinks it is..Unrequited love sucks..
I guess I'll just go back to drawing sad people again.. Till next time.. :*