lala~

Music:*looping Valse d'Amelie*

Playing: Disgaea 2 >:p

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Plirothika epitelous apo ti douleiaaa~
Tora mporo na xrisimopoiiso dika mou lefta se AXRISTA pramata :D
Gnorisa ena paidi, xmmm nomizo oti mou aresei arketa, exei xioumor k einai glukas, alla deeen paizei na tou areso ego. oh well, tha deiksei. Kai filos dld na ginei den exo problem, alla thatan kala na ginei kati perissotero...
Anyways, general thoughts:
- arxise i sxoli, as strotho epitelous mia k kali
- h zoi einai pragmatika apaisia an thelei, as elpisoume oti den tha mas ta ferei ola anapoda.
- I will NEVER need a lie. giati na lene paparies oi anthropoi? -_- eilikrineia toso diskolo einai??
kai telos,
- i filia einai to pio simantiko pragma.- oti kai na poun opoios k an to pei.

~peace \/ ;)

At last ^_^

yaaaay! epitelous~ ta pramata mou fainontai na kalitereuoun. exo sxedon kseperasei ekeino to agori(ektos apo merikes flashies otan exo tis maures mou..). Alla ok eimai enas ugihs anthropos thalega : D
Epitelous arxisa na apoktao thelisi na teleioso ti rimadosxoli mou(mathimatiko bleh),
epitelous tha arxiso na douleuo, epitelous den tha ekneurizomai me ton eauto mou pou apla kathetai k blepei na pernaei i zoi tou. k mesa stous stoxous einai na mpo k se kana tmima gia skitso, k na matho iaponika at last. ^_^
Hurray for determination :)

*Sigh*

Well, I guess the title should give out my current mood..
In case it doesn't..It's crappy >:Hmm..I don't know what I hate more..
Society or Sexuality.. Nah, the answer is SO obvious.
Sexuality has done nothing bad to me. Society on the other way... >:(
So old-fashioned, always following stereotypes.. Baka bakashi..

Anyway, I fail in starting over..Why?
Because I had told myself I'd never try again to maintain contact with that guy and a couple of days ago I did again.. -_-
Of course our last meeting helped. We went out with my best friend and he was there too. I spent two hours watching them play pool and we were making jokes and trying to be friendly and stuff.. And just when we were about to leave and I was thinking "Hey, it wasn't so bad..", my best friend goes to the WC and he turns to me, the guy that confessed to him that he likes him, and asks how he looks..
Hmm..Sexy? Hot? Cute? Yeah, I should have just said one of these just to make him uncomfortable. An eye for an eye, in a way..
Tch.. I feel so helpless.. Feelings shouldn't overrun logic.. Or should they?
Why isn't everything simple and nice? :'(
I hope next time I post it'll be something nice for a change -_-
I just wanted to leave a peaceful life, and here I am lost in a complicated bisexual reality. It kinda sucks.

Dreams..

Hmm..so like I said, a fresh new start is what I need.. right.. Who said it was that easy >.<
I'm kinda beginning to not think about him, but that's only one hour out of 24/7. XD
The dreams help a lot too! Happy hugged couple, me and him, on vacations, in the bathroom, etc. Omg, somebody stop me from sleeping! :P

Anyways, I am about to get my first real job. well not 'real' because it's hard or anything, but giving out fliers sure isn't a REAL job. pay sucks and so does the endless walking and waiting.
My first exam period is about to end and it kinda sucked, I hope I'll do better in the second.

I've started playing go again, and I am surprised I haven't fallen behind. I'm at around 10 kyu in the new KGS, so that'd make me around 17 kyu in Japan, real-life?..
I must hurry and become dan :D

My manga is stuck in the 6th page. I don't have the mood to do it and I 'd prefer it well done, rather than just done with. :)

Last of all, my mood is a straight line trying to get to the core of earth, but at least it's moving reeeeeeeeeeeeally slowly. So something good is bound to happen sooner or later.

I've seen some interesting blogs, but I still haven't gotten the hang of this. How the hell do you put a blog as a favourite or something?..I hope I'll figure it out soon >.<
Anyways, see ya stranger ;)

Starting over..

Well, I've thought about it and I've decided.. I'm starting over.. A new start is the best thing I could do.. Well, whining about how sucky my life is doesn't do any good. I have good friends, a nice family and I'm in a good university.. It'd be nice to actually draw to make a living, but it's too faraway a dream. I guess I'll sit my ass down and study to finish the Maths School and I'll see on the way what I will do.. I also decided that I tried enough with that friend of mine. I called him and tried to talk with him about me liking him, but it just didn't happen. He was either busy or sleeping or just didn't want to answer or go out with me probably, so I'm done wasting my energy and happiness on that one..
Let's see.. I found a hilarious site. Http://ftw.generation.no
It has wtf pics, which means they are total randomness and there are many funny ones in it, but also many shoking or scary ones >.< So watch it if you aren't easily offended or affected by some things.. homosexuality, blood, etc.Most of those pics are photoshop-experiments :P Dunno some people are crazy XD

Lastly, I saw a deleted comment in my last post O_o.. I was shocked to see a comment in the first place, but a deleted one? :) Lol, I guess whoever wrote that changed his/her mind. Oh well..

Melancholy :\

I think there's a song called Melancholy..anyways..
I am feeling very down lately.. I have a LOT of things on my mind..I don't do well in university, I'm feeling like I won't do anything I really like in my life and as if I wasn't in a bad condition, I fell in love with a friend of mine..His name keeps popping up in my head..It's everywhere.. I mean who names a cookie-store Aggelos(Angel in greek..). I told him through an sms that i've liked him for some time and that since, naturally he didn't, this effectively ruined our friendship..I said that we could be friends if he wanted, but it really was up to both of us. Then I said that if he thought that he should call me that moment, he shouldn't cause I wouldn't have the guts to answer..And that's all.. This happened about two weeks ago.. He didn't reply to the sms. He saw me once on the street and he spoke to me like nothing had happened...
I really can't deal with this..I'm weak around him..I can't think straight, I say stupid things just to make him laugh..(well I do this pretty often anyway ^^;)
..It hurts too much..
I guess that being in love isn't always the good feeling everyone thinks it is..Unrequited love sucks..
I guess I'll just go back to drawing sad people again.. Till next time.. :*

First post ^^;

Soo, first time I've ever posted on a blog. Hi to anyone(probably noone but oh well :))
I don't even know what to write so I'll just write anything :)
I just came back from Paros (a beautiful greek island), and I already miss it :)
But I missed my home too so we're even. XD
Paros was great! Nice beaches and somewhat quiet too. I dont like too crowded places, so it was ok with me. Paroikia(where my sucky hotel was) doesn't have very good nightlife, so we had to go to Naousa(20minutes with bus). It was worth it though. It has nice clubs(Bareladika pwnz) and many restaurants. The only bad thing is the prices. about 1-2 euros higher than in Thessaloniki(my home). I mean..who sells beer for 7 euros..jeez..
But I had a great time :)
Anyway I'll probably post something more interesting next time.. see yaa ;)